Saturday, September 04, 2004
here to ***** ard again...
can't stand packing files...juz done wif bio. haix still got 3 more stacks to clear... think i'll juz stuff em in e files... =p damn tiring... shuld haf juz filed them as i got them...
i'm juz bored... there seem to b a lot to study... duno where to start frm... haix. argh...can't seem to sit down n study...
i'm missing u again... miss e time when i can juz tok to u when i'm lonely, sit n juz look at you, n to hug u too. =) i'm sorry i didn't go n c u. juz can't find time. mayb its juz an excuse. but what if they are there... wat am i suppose to say? i juz wan some time together... juz u n me. sometimes i wish u'll juz escape n come back. think i daydream too much. always fantasizing bout stuff, but i can't help it. i'm a pisces. haha. mayb u haf forgotten me, but i wun forget u. hope u r happy. miss u royroy. =)
Having a true faith is the most difficult thing in the world. Many will try to take it from you.
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Friday, September 03, 2004
hey its e 1st time, i go to sch n there's no lessons!!!
its real crap lah... woke up at 550am... lug my lazy s to sch... den usual stuff...
stone at e oasis, assembly....etc.
went to play badminton for an hr, run errand for ts, rot in e canteen, photocopy my lost phy notes... n that's it... i'm out of sch. technically, i went to sch juz to show face dat i'm present in sch. crap. maths lect cancelled, phy cancelled, bio cancelled... hmmm...wondering why there is sch in e 1st place... actually there was phy... n i erm was gg to pon it... i was still feeling guilty bout it on my way hm...but hah... gd news frm zw. woot.
oh well, went hm showered den went WRL. yep. studied... or erm... i got quite restless n went to borrow bk. hee. juz can't seem to control myself. haven't read in a long time... oh well, actualli got myself a bk during some hol. oh yah, tchers' day hol. now another 1. think dat 1 got me gg. =)
The Lost Army of Cambyses. think it'll be a darn gd bk. =p shall juz spend my fri evening + night reading it. hee.
n yah....suddenly got tis feeling of wanting to go swimming. think i'm fading... after such a long time of hiding indoors... i shall go during e hols. =) tempted to go these few daes... but i can't. haix.
Man imposes his own limitations, don't set any.
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Thursday, September 02, 2004
A little conversation that made n broke my dae...
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Wednesday, September 01, 2004
saw tis website while surfing...
The Secret Society of Happy pple.
they had tis 31 types of happiness...
1. amased
2. amused
3. anticipation
4. borrowed
5. celebrate
6. cheerful
7. compassion
8. content
9. delight
10. enthusiastic
11. exuberant
12. fun
13. give
14. glad
15. grattitude
16. hopeful
17. humour
18. inspiration
19. joy
20. love
21. nostalgic
22. optismistic
23. peace
24. play
25. relief
26. satisfaction
27. spiritual
28. spontaneous
29. surprise
30. sweet
31. vivacious
hmm...some of them seems... weird? haha.
You never achieve real success unless you like what you are doing.
ROXYfied
Monday, August 30, 2004
tis is e WORSE prac ever... its realli sucked. not that i want to complain, but we dun haf a check list, i dun noe wat was missing until e end of e prac, when we were clearing up, i realised i didn't haf wat evan did. its crap. no cover for e thermo chem expt. no wooden splint for hydrogen n oxygen test. ok, mayb i'm stupid, didn't get it frm e side bench where we normally did, but how am i suppose to know... e litmus paper was on e bench! actualli, it was supposed to b there. when we put reagents for e nxt batch, it was there. crap. n my FA3, like more den half was gone!! izn't suppose to e new? not full but at least half? needed for titration leh... not juz a little... sigh. pple use watch glass to cover e cup, i dun haf dat either. no iron sulphate to test for NO2. its screwed. mayb its my fault i didn't ask...
n tis is not e end. e design was argh... i can't do. 9marks gone. its realli handing up blank paper. thermo chem can't calculate e Ar of X, Qa... juz concluded wrongly. didn't realise i added e sulphate n i concluded it was there. culdn't test for any gas so thinking there was sulphate, all my gas became SO2. in e end, some sae got CO2, which i spent duno how long but cannot get anything... n hydrogen. dat darn wooden splint. its realli bad. complex ion oso put wrong one. how am i suppose to pass prac? how am i suppose to pass my chem? of all things... i can't drop chem.
i studied for it ya noe. i read e dumb(ok its not, its me) Qa notes...3 times... i memorised e stuff! but it doesn't seem to work. dat's it. study does not pay. or mayb it does. i m juz screwed. 1st time ever i was nervous for an exam. nv had dat prob. onli till tis phy n chem prac. mayb its e lack of preparation? but shuldn't one b less panicky if ur're not prepared... cos u'll juz lose even more pts... u culd afford to lose some panicky marks if u noe all ur stuff well... contradictory...
n shopping for tcher's dat gifts n food is damn tiring. n it doesn't help wif e da yi ma ard. i m juz soo soo tired... dun wan to go to sch tmr...
There are intangible realities which float near us, formless and without words; realities which no one has thought out, and which are excluded for lack of interpreters.
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Sunday, August 29, 2004
its realli bothering me again... its juz becoming more n more obvious... pple notice, they ask. i'm not blaming them or anything... but it does make me think bout it again... not a v gd time.. but still.. it has to b resolved...but when? can it ever b resolved or it'll juz drag on...
it takes two to clap... suppose its e same for friendship. it juz dosen't work if only 1 party is trying hard to maintain it... or worse do it at different times so that in the end it still will not work out? how things became like that, i'll like to know too. i've been wondering. u feel depressed bout it, i dun feel gd either. i may look like i'm v happy.. but dat's onli cos pple ard me keep me occupied to forget bout these things... i haven't realli felt happy since all these stuff happened. i think i haven't been luffing as much as ever, not as much as since we bcame friends. n it dosen't realli help that we'll b seeing a lot of each other. mayb hols r coming, it serves as a means for avoiding it... mayb u haf let go... so there's nothing left to aviod yah...
mayb its juz me... well, i haf became close wif pple in class since this incident. but i think its cos i juz want to run away frm it... being wif them like i said makes me forget bout e prob...
argh...i can't write properly... but sincs when culd i...
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