Sunday, February 20, 2005
meet up wif e ntujc pple.. but e guys are kinda busy.. so most of e girls made up e pple i saw 2dae.. morn was fine.. till afternoon.. den duno y suddenly sian diao le.. hmm..not dat they are boring or wat lah. its juz me..
anw was thinking while gg home.. friends.. other den gg out to eat, tok, play.. wat else are they for..? juz had tis feeling dat other den doin these things.. wat else haf i done wif them.. izn't it sad dat my friends are no more den juz gg out, for companionship to eat, tok, play.. mayb study when in sch, haf lessons together.. juz feel that friends should be more than tis.. aren't they? mayb its juz me.. but it kinda makes me feel lonely.. i duno why.. lonely, selfish, judgemental..
how mani pple realli noe me well..n how mani pple do i realli noe well.. esp now when we all leave sch, dun get to c them so often, if not at all.. find it kind of sad.. everyone's busy wif tis n that.. how mani wuld juz come n meet u.. not for any purpose, not bcos of companionship or wateva purpose.. shuo1 ju4 bu4 hao3 ting1 de4 jiu1 shi4 jiu3 rou4 peng2 you3. if working is gg to b like dat.. i dun wan to work!! facing all those older colleagues, not dat they are bad or wat.. but realli nothing to sae lorh.. all they tok bout is, toto, 4D, buying/selling properties, go gym, tok bout nieces, nephews, gossip.. during work time. realli damn slack lorh.. juz do everything bout their work. some realli juz speak bout their private matters like its part of their job.. hp e ringtone so darn loud, happily messaging away.. i'll die working wif these pple..
mayb gg overseas an excuse, to get away frm all these loneliness.. its suppose to b lonely overseas.. no family members, no old frens, nothing.. juz start frm scratch. juz realli disappointed wif e life i'm leading now.. wat haf i gain up till now.. i realli duno.. except spending $$ on useless stuff.. i'm juz so tired to carry on...
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