Tuesday, August 16, 2005
everyone's busy. i'm not. this sucks. a lot.
it's tiring to get pple out. they just seem to be so busy with their "new" lives they can't be bothered with their "old" lives. maybe it's just me cos i have so smuch free time. i dread making new friends. why? because when you no longer have common time( ie school), which forcers you to be together, pple just drift apart. and it happenes even when you try not to let it happen. maybe it's just me.
i just feel so left out of everything. friends talking bout orientation, classes, etc. no more fresh common topic left to talk about. and after school starts, i'll be half way round the earth. and with the lagging time, it just makes everything worse. i wonder what's going to happen 5 years down the road. or actually just less than a yr. when i come back next summer, i'll just feel like a stranger. how 'bout 5 years later? i don't want to think about it.
all the i-will-miss-you and tell-me-when-you-come-back thing just dosent cut it. i mean i don't feel any sinceirity or wat. it's always me bugging pple online. friends don't meet just once a year and lose all communications between that. you don't only talk when u want to set a time & date for meeting. you get what i mean? maybe not.
i am friendless.
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